I honestly don't know how to deal with 8-9th graders anymore.

I don't know what to do with one of my 9th-grade class anymore. Some of the students showed severe attention-seeking behavior, making them extremely rowdy and difficult to manage. Last week, while trying to get them to sit quietly and read, I went over to each table to ensure everyone was on task. However, the students at two tables were unable to control their behavior - one group was stacking stationary for kicks, and another was talking loudly and throwing pencils. Despite my repeated kind reminders that such behaviors were not acceptable, they refused to listen. The only thing that seemed to momentarily work was when I sat next to one of their tables, although this was not an ideal solution as I needed to attend to other tables as well. By the end of the lesson, I was utterly exhausted. It was frustrating beyond measure that we were unable to cover the material as planned. I kept telling myself to remain composed... to hold on until I could dismiss them, until I could say "Goodbye class." To my dismay, one of the troublesome students (a repeat offender) thought that it was a good idea to sneak up to the my table and play with the call bell. That was the final straw, and I lost control. I began screaming and yelling, telling them how insufferable they were. I even pointed at them (a gesture I typically avoid as it is impolite), reiterating discussions we had during parents' day about their lack of progress - they had shown not an ounce of improvement. Some students even attempted to stifle laughs, which only made me angrier. I ended up flipping a small table next to me and sharply exclaimed how they completely lack any sense of guilt or shame. I then told them all to "Get lost!", including the ones that were completely innocent! Once everyone left the classroom, one of the senior students came in to comfort me (very sweet boy!). He told me he heard and saw everything. It was then that I snapped out of my anger. I feel so sorry for him to witness me in this state. Looking back, it was a very bad idea to let myself loose like that. Its just hard... submitted by /u/RoviHwangxD [link] [comments]