I feel like I'm slowly falling apart

Hi. Ok that might be a dramatic way to put it but I don't think I can keep teaching. About two weeks ago, I (24F) started teaching ESL to elementary school children in my country (Argentina) and so far, I hate it. I guess I love teaching in the theoric sense. I love the theories and the papers and the teaching techniques, but applying them has been hell. The kids I teach are from ages 6-8 and they are all very sweet. They are not allowed to bring their phones but of course, the brain rot is still clearly there. They don't know how to write. They only write in uppercase because lowercase confuses them. They don't fully know the alphabet in Spanish, our language, and cannot absorve new information. It has been exasperating trying to teach them things. I was encouraged by everyone to use tech aids, like videos and online games, saying that it is the only way they will learn. But all online content I find is either way too old, so it is not engaging for them, or too new, which is pure AI slop and I don't want to feed them that. Apart from that, I'm struggling with managing my time between college, work and my free time. The other day I stayed like two hours extra at school, tidying up, taking care of somethings, and I completely forgot I had a class myself. And most of my free time I spend planning classes. There's this policy where I work, where the classes for the next week have to be fully planned by Friday of the previous week, and it wrecks me trying to meet the deadline, it wrecks me trying to think of games and songs and videos that are fun and not too boring and not AI. And then, of course, going to class, where I'm not supposed to answer to disrespect, where whatever I planned doesn't work because kids genuinely do not want to participate and don't look me in the eyes when I speak and criticize everything I plan, complaining and such. How can it have been only two weeks and I already want out? I have been told it gets better, but does it? Will it get better or will I learn to ignore the things that make me feel bad? I'm already thinking of quiting at the end of the school year (here, the school year is from March to October, winter break in July) but it's taking a considerable effort to not quit right now. I've started dreading going to work. Any adivice, any words, any similar stories? Thank you and excuse my English if there are any mistakes! Corrections are welcomed. submitted by /u/Educational_Pickle51 [link] [comments]