My position was eliminated

I was informed yesterday morning by my principal that my position was going to be eliminated due to low enrollment in the upcoming grade level and now I feel discouraged from finishing out the school year. Why he had to tell me a few minutes before the first bell rings? That’s truly beyond me. I am relatively new to teaching, this isn’t my first year, but this is the first time that I have been told that I will not be coming back to a school. For context, I moved several hours away (5+) from my family to teach at this school and know almost no one down here and have struggled to make friends in the area. So getting this news was pretty devastating. The only people I have to lean on is my boyfriend who I live with, and my best friend who lives nearby. My family is very supportive but again, they live hours away from me. I feel more frustrated and discouraged than anything else. I have been handed classes full of behaviors and low achievers and have been told that nothing I’m doing is working, but I am given no support or advice. The ‘support’ I do receive is typically along the line of“Well, have you tried building a relationship?” or “have you tried talking with the about their behavior?” As if that isn’t the first thing I do. I also used to show up as soon as the school opened to get ready for the day, stay as late as 7 to prep for the next, work over the weekends to decorate the hallways and lockers, tutor students after school for free, and I stressed myself out so much that I wound up in the hospital. No more. Literally never again. I want to throw up my hands and say “fuck this, find a replacement for the rest of the year” and leave. Admin expects me to “finish strong” but I don’t see a reason to. He said it was just a numbers game and that it’s not personal, but it’s really hard not to take it to heart. Like, yesterday morning I was expected to walk back to class and teach like everything was fine. Why couldn’t he have waiting until Friday to break this news to me? He just HAD to tell me at 7:45am on a Wednesday? The dread of going back today is really what is weighing on me though. I wasn’t able to sleep last night, I didn’t grade any assignments, respond to any emails, or prep before I left. I feel so overwhelmed that all I can do is lie here as I’m typing and stare off into space. This year has been incredibly rough, so maybe it’s a blessing that I am given the opportunity to find a new school or consider other careers. submitted by /u/Mysterious-Pop-6138 [link] [comments]